AM I CHAINED TO MY "PRESSURE " LIFE?

UEC IS COMING NEAR,BUT I STILL NOT NERVOUS NOW .
I THINK THAT DAY I WILL BE THE ONE WHO IS NERVOUS AND EXCITED
MY PARENTS SUGGESTS ME GOING TO SINGAPORE AS THERE HAVE A HIGH QUALITY UNIVERSITY
BUT I HOPE I CAN FLY TO UNITED STATES,THEY SAID THE JOURNEY IS TOO LONG ,ABOUT 20 HOURS ARRIVE UNITED STATES,BUT I DONT CARE .
THE MOST IMPORTANT THING IS I NEED TO GET A GOOD RESULT ENGLISH , MATH , BIO, CHE,MUST MUST AAAA! PHYSIC ,GEO, CHI, BM IS LESS IMPORTANT FOR ME NOW , BUT I WILL TRY MY BEST TO ACHIEVE MY TARGET .
SHARON TOLD ME THAT I ALWAYS CONSIDER UEC FIRST COMPARE TO OTHERS .BECAUSE FOR ME IT IS REALLY REALLY IMPORTANT ,I WONT SAY THAT IF I DONT GET A GOOD RESULT IN UEC ,MY LIFE IS OVER ,NO !I HAVE PLANED TO TAKE SAT OR TOEFL ,BUT STILL HAVENT DECIDE YET .TOO MANY THINGS STAY IN FRONT OF ME , AND I DONT KNOW HOW TO DECIDE ,SO NOW I ONLY CAN CONCENTRATE ON MY STUDY ---UEC.WHEN I COME BACK TO SEE THIS DIARY , I WONDER WHAT IS THE FEELING IN THAT TIME .....